I find it hilarious that I have to keep breaking my posts up into two parts all the time. But what the hell am I supposed to do about it ya know? :P Anyway here I go
Right when I thought the drama was at it's peak things go crazy. Ok, so I left out that when we joined WoW, that two friends we made from another game joined our server. Now, they were our friends only in the sense that people over the internet can be friends except that one of them was particularly clingy. After a bit of pressure I made a bad judgment call and shared my phone number with them. They were married, so I figured there would be no harm in it. Much to my chagrin, the husband started calling me. Ok, I know that is what happens when you give people your phone number, but it was really only shared with the understanding that they could use it if they needed us online for something. I saw the phone calls as mostly unnecessary because we had our own vent server running on a laptop that was connected to the cent channel 24 hours a day so all they had to do was log in and shout. He was calling my house with his cell phone all the time and I can only imagine how much that cost. For those of you who don't game alot, Ventrillo is a FREE chat client that lets you communicate with people all over the world with a relatively simple interface and microphone. So I will reiterate that I don't understand why he didn't shout through vent to get my attention. He was logged in every time he called. And when he called, it was for stupid bullshit. Like 'Hi kitty, how are you? I have a huge penis ya know. Is it normal for chicks to bleed every time I have sex with them?' What a creep. What I wanna know is if his cock was so damn big, how come his wife told me about her magical hitachi wand complete with 15 various freaky attachments?
Anyway, the point is he called me lots for stupid shit. And he would only call while he knew my husband was a work. Which was annoying because he never called to say anything to my husband. It serves me right for letting my guard down about a seemingly harmless person. I felt really bad for them because they were stuck living with her parents basement. She was supporting his lazy ass by working at B.Daltons. And his job was to pretty much feign manic depression and play video games all day. He wouldn't even cook or clean. And in all the time I ever talked to him he was never depressed ever. He wasn't even on meds. All he had to do was see a counselor once a month and collect his various checks for being 'disable'. What a great country we live in. That's a different rant for another day though.
So eventually they are able to move to a different state. The wife transfers to another B.Dalton and the husband find a job a some tech company doing OS installations. Nothing complicated. It was the only way they were able to move since only a couple weeks before the husband decides to spend all their money saved for moving on online currency for the game. Which was well over 600 dollars. Apparently he's always doing shit like that. Thank goodness I didn't end up with someone like that. How could anybody be with someone that so clearly has 'LOSER' stamped on their forehead. I felt so bad for the wife.
After their first week in their new place, the husband starts his new job. He ended up staying extra on his first day just helping out, but he came home happy and said he loved his new job but he missed being able to game all day long. But since most people (including his wife) had to deal with not being able to play for a few hours so they can pay the bills. Mostly because DING: You can't play WoW or any online game for that matter if you are homeless! This seemed to totally elude him. So the next day comes for him to go to work and I get a call from his wife. She is hysterically crying because she tried to surprise him at work with lunch and he wasn't there. Then she told me that when she called his cell phone (the one he was always calling me with) that he told her he was driving into the mountains to kill himself. So she called me because she had just gotten off the phone with the police to send them after him and she didn't know what to do. I did my best to be a good listening ear, without telling here that her husband was a bum and she would be better off letting him kill himself. But she told me the saddest part of her story. She told me how she couldn't live without him and that when he's not there she has no purpose for existing and all this crap. It was then that I realized they were perfect for eachother. There was simply no hope for either of them.
Over the next week I receive several calls from the wife because her husband was institutionalized until they deemed it safe for him to leave. I also got a couple calls from him saying the drugs were great, and that he didn't know you get locked up for saying you'll kill yourself. /sigh
Finally, he gets out a week and a half later gloating about all the 14-17 drug addicts he had been hitting on. He said he told them about the size of his dick and they all wanted a piece. He then went on about how he would trade his meds for sexual favors from the underaged junkies which is where I decided to draw the line. I told him that I thought that he was sick and needed to go into a solitary padded cell and stay there preferably well after he had rotted way.
How the hell do I manage to find these people? Ugh, so I quit WoW. I knew I would return but I hoped that when I did, I would be able to play without all the bullshit drama. I wish I could be one of those people that has no clue what this is like and has the supreme mellow gaming experience.
After WoW, I went back to EVE for a while which ended up sucking so bad that I ended up joining SWG! Ghey after ghey after ghey.... will the vicious cycle end? :P
Friday, February 2, 2007
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
Oh my!
Ok, I played with the colors a bit in hopes of being less offensive to peoples retinas har har har!
Anywho, geting back to my blog of doom...
Last night I managed to sweet talk my husband into letting me reactivate my WoW account. Thank goodness most MMO's have the same basic controls. It took me about 10 minutes of running around and fumbling before I could get the hang of combat again. I only died once, but thanks to reincarnation I popped back up and had a chance to run away and lick my wounds. I tried grouping with my husband, but even for someone only three levels beneath me, the experience was halved. Which is kind of a pisser because we are so close in level and we are being penalized for grouping. This kinda scares me a bit, since I have so much more time to build a character during the day. So basically, unless I stop playing so hubby can catch up, we may never be able to group together.
Don't get me wrong though, I love solo'ing mobs as much as the next gal. It's just that to me, there is no point in playing an MMO unless you play with others in some way. People shouldn't be punished for grouping. :(
On another tangent, I'm glad I left myself with a Kodo mount and a bunch of gold before I had to quit for personal reasons in June. You see, I refuse to play a game that is not fun. If it's not fun, then it isn't a game! And I was dealing with a lot of really immature people that take these kinds of games too seriously. I'm not slamming power-gamers though because I myself tend to play both sides of the spectrum as a power gamer one week to being a casual gamer the next. It wasn't their play style per se. It was more like their attitude about life in general. I was in a guild with a bunch of guys that liked to be as vulgar as they could in front of the female members just because they wanted us to be uncomfortable. Which is extremely crappy for a number of reasons. As I may have stated before, being a girl gamer is really rough. Being an expert girl gamer is even more complicated. Let me also say that their behavior towards females in game spoke volumes about their personality IRL, or lack thereof. One day the guild chat had spiraled out of control to the point where I immediately started seeking out a new guild. They were going on about how to have sex with women who only had one eye. Then they took a step further and said they would put their cocks in her empty eye sockets and proceed to fill them with jizm. yeahh.....
I am an adult so I can handle most types of off-colour humor. In fact I welcome it. But this was way too far. I didn't want my game experience in what was supposed to be an MMO to be completely ruined by a group of men who clearly had no respect for their fellow humankind. I don't really give a shit if they were speaking of it in private. That's their business. But guild chat is not the place for that garbage. In most servers I've played on, you need to keep the channel relatively clear for emergencies. There was one other female in the guild and she acted like it was perfectly fine to talk about raping other women and shit like that. Well, just because the only woman idiotic enough to come near these guys with anything less then a class 4 hazmat suit on says it's ok to hate women and other colours of human beings doesn't mean it is generally acceptable by all women. She was the most sorry fucking excuse for a female I had ever met. And that is saying something. Considering I didn't think my mother and sister (in-law!!) could ever be topped. But lo and behold, there she was saying that rape was a great way to get off...
Anyway, I manage to get into another guild, which thankfully was mature enough to handle themselves around females. But as this was declared a rival guild of my last guild, my former guildmaster(or GM for short) decided to take it personally and call me a two timing whore who got bought by another guild. It was endless with all the hate tells and spam. And the members kill stealing so I couldn't build properly. They even went as far as to train aggro mobs on my character so I would die. I had no idea that I was so important to all of these losers in a game so huge that they would decide to target me and my husband with their hate. And all I wanted to do was be in a civilized guild. Which is my choice. I didn't get married to them, I didn't swear a life oath to them... it's a game! People join and leave guilds all the time. And I'm sure they didn't really need me around because I really couldn't contribute anything to their shit. Anyway, in my whole life of playing MMO's I have never ever had a GM take me leaving the guild this hard. If they get that upset over something so trivial in an intangible cyber-world, I would hate to see how they handle getting cut off on the road, or rejected by the opposite/same sex, or even a future employer someday. Does this mean they will someday become apart of the Montana Militia if they aren't already? They do have their own currency and stuff... Scary.
rawr
I'll write more about why I originally quit WoW later. Because the story DOES get crazier if you can believe it hahahaha!
Anywho, geting back to my blog of doom...
Last night I managed to sweet talk my husband into letting me reactivate my WoW account. Thank goodness most MMO's have the same basic controls. It took me about 10 minutes of running around and fumbling before I could get the hang of combat again. I only died once, but thanks to reincarnation I popped back up and had a chance to run away and lick my wounds. I tried grouping with my husband, but even for someone only three levels beneath me, the experience was halved. Which is kind of a pisser because we are so close in level and we are being penalized for grouping. This kinda scares me a bit, since I have so much more time to build a character during the day. So basically, unless I stop playing so hubby can catch up, we may never be able to group together.
Don't get me wrong though, I love solo'ing mobs as much as the next gal. It's just that to me, there is no point in playing an MMO unless you play with others in some way. People shouldn't be punished for grouping. :(
On another tangent, I'm glad I left myself with a Kodo mount and a bunch of gold before I had to quit for personal reasons in June. You see, I refuse to play a game that is not fun. If it's not fun, then it isn't a game! And I was dealing with a lot of really immature people that take these kinds of games too seriously. I'm not slamming power-gamers though because I myself tend to play both sides of the spectrum as a power gamer one week to being a casual gamer the next. It wasn't their play style per se. It was more like their attitude about life in general. I was in a guild with a bunch of guys that liked to be as vulgar as they could in front of the female members just because they wanted us to be uncomfortable. Which is extremely crappy for a number of reasons. As I may have stated before, being a girl gamer is really rough. Being an expert girl gamer is even more complicated. Let me also say that their behavior towards females in game spoke volumes about their personality IRL, or lack thereof. One day the guild chat had spiraled out of control to the point where I immediately started seeking out a new guild. They were going on about how to have sex with women who only had one eye. Then they took a step further and said they would put their cocks in her empty eye sockets and proceed to fill them with jizm. yeahh.....
I am an adult so I can handle most types of off-colour humor. In fact I welcome it. But this was way too far. I didn't want my game experience in what was supposed to be an MMO to be completely ruined by a group of men who clearly had no respect for their fellow humankind. I don't really give a shit if they were speaking of it in private. That's their business. But guild chat is not the place for that garbage. In most servers I've played on, you need to keep the channel relatively clear for emergencies. There was one other female in the guild and she acted like it was perfectly fine to talk about raping other women and shit like that. Well, just because the only woman idiotic enough to come near these guys with anything less then a class 4 hazmat suit on says it's ok to hate women and other colours of human beings doesn't mean it is generally acceptable by all women. She was the most sorry fucking excuse for a female I had ever met. And that is saying something. Considering I didn't think my mother and sister (in-law!!) could ever be topped. But lo and behold, there she was saying that rape was a great way to get off...
Anyway, I manage to get into another guild, which thankfully was mature enough to handle themselves around females. But as this was declared a rival guild of my last guild, my former guildmaster(or GM for short) decided to take it personally and call me a two timing whore who got bought by another guild. It was endless with all the hate tells and spam. And the members kill stealing so I couldn't build properly. They even went as far as to train aggro mobs on my character so I would die. I had no idea that I was so important to all of these losers in a game so huge that they would decide to target me and my husband with their hate. And all I wanted to do was be in a civilized guild. Which is my choice. I didn't get married to them, I didn't swear a life oath to them... it's a game! People join and leave guilds all the time. And I'm sure they didn't really need me around because I really couldn't contribute anything to their shit. Anyway, in my whole life of playing MMO's I have never ever had a GM take me leaving the guild this hard. If they get that upset over something so trivial in an intangible cyber-world, I would hate to see how they handle getting cut off on the road, or rejected by the opposite/same sex, or even a future employer someday. Does this mean they will someday become apart of the Montana Militia if they aren't already? They do have their own currency and stuff... Scary.
rawr
I'll write more about why I originally quit WoW later. Because the story DOES get crazier if you can believe it hahahaha!
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Yaaaaaar! Part 2!
I have a little more time this morning so hopefully I can finish this story! Well, there I was playing meridian again as if it had never been shut down in 2000. And I played it happily for a couple years until I found out one of the people who bought the game was completely corrupt. :( He was making changes that nobody in the community liked or would ever be happy with. A lot of us made the mistake in thinking that because we were the real reason the game was as successful, that he would somehow respect our feelings and memory of the game. Let me say now that the meridian community is very tightly knit. We were all on first name and personal terms with the new devs. It was like having a good friend who owned a game company. So despite our pleas of mercy for our dear game, he pushed forward quite possibly ruining it forever. The game veterans (such as myself) who had been playing since the alpha/beta stages began to flood out of the game. We couldn't stand to watch the travesty anymore. We got tired of donating to the point where we were all on the verge of not being able to pay our bills.
If only we were not so blind. If only we could have forseen that there would be nothing left but some crap that was aimed at a target audience of.... fuck I don't know. Anyone new who ever joined the game while I was there quit less than a day later in disgust. There only consolation from the vets being 'It wasn't always like this ya know. It used to be more than some lame attempt at quakecon.' Don't get me wrong! I love quake as much as the next fragdawl, it just didn't have a place here in this game. It didn't make sense to have a game where building was so slow and painful that many would rather put sharp AIDS infected sticks in their eye for fun rather than bother with a day of attempting to grind on this game. With most of my happy memories nearly shattered, I gathered up my things and left M59 for good. I stayed longer than any of the other vets on my server, just trying to cling. I realize now how sad that is. People still exist on the less cordial of the two servers.... it's just that though. Although I think calling it 'less cordial' maybe be putting it extremely lightly. I tried switching servers before canceling all my accounts and found it impossible to play on a server that was so up it's own ass with paranoia that they wouldn't even give me time to explain who I was or where I was from. They were convinced that I was some sort of alt of an evil guild within the game since I know how to build quicker than most due to my experience and immense ammounts of free time. It sucked. I will get into more detail about this when I start doing my game reviews. And these will be honest reviews from an official girl gamer, not some immature, testosterone hyped 12 year old fanboi concerned about losing his cloudsong...
Anyway, so after meridian I decided to return to Daoc. Which by this time was incredibly hard to locate at the local EB/Gamestop, which until recently was my favorite place to find games. Unfortunately they cater a considerable bit more to the console gamer. Which is fine in it's own respect. I enjoy button mashing about as much as I enjoy pounding away at my keyboard. But they are losing a lot of money this way as I have now turned to Amazon for my gaming experience LOL. Which should really be saying something IMHO. Plus they have a marketplace feature where people can undercut the big vendors with cheaper stuff. Let's get back towards the topic a bit. I manage to beg the gamestop manager to give me the display copy of Daoc with all the expansions leading up to, and including trials of atlantis. I think I played this in hope of having some memory of my old guildmates and the fun of running around in a dungeon. Well, I was completely shocked to find that my whole guild was still active, but I didn't know a single person in it. I got over it, and began playing again only to accidentally run into a zone that was a player owned LAG! Oops I mean I wandered into player owned housing. And again I was saddened by game devs putting things in a game that would make it run crappier than ever. It was a slap in the face. One that was soon to come over and over again with each new game I would grace with my presence. I canceled the same week since the lag was too great to bother with.
Over the next few years people would see me on such games as Thang, Ragnarok Online, Eve Online, World of Warcraft, Flyff, Star Wars Galaxies, EQ 2, EQ (yes I went back for a short while), Shadowbane, Lineage 2, Anarchy Online, Vendetta, Earth and Beyond, Second Life, Tibia, and a few other names I can't remember at this exact moment. I haven't tried it all, but I'm pretty damn close with how many games I have had to hop in search of the perfect MMO. I feel I should add this though. A game isn't necessarily all about the devs fucking up. In the end, it's what you make of it. I have had to learn this painful lesson since all games I have played follow the same formula. Arg.
Rawr
If only we were not so blind. If only we could have forseen that there would be nothing left but some crap that was aimed at a target audience of.... fuck I don't know. Anyone new who ever joined the game while I was there quit less than a day later in disgust. There only consolation from the vets being 'It wasn't always like this ya know. It used to be more than some lame attempt at quakecon.' Don't get me wrong! I love quake as much as the next fragdawl, it just didn't have a place here in this game. It didn't make sense to have a game where building was so slow and painful that many would rather put sharp AIDS infected sticks in their eye for fun rather than bother with a day of attempting to grind on this game. With most of my happy memories nearly shattered, I gathered up my things and left M59 for good. I stayed longer than any of the other vets on my server, just trying to cling. I realize now how sad that is. People still exist on the less cordial of the two servers.... it's just that though. Although I think calling it 'less cordial' maybe be putting it extremely lightly. I tried switching servers before canceling all my accounts and found it impossible to play on a server that was so up it's own ass with paranoia that they wouldn't even give me time to explain who I was or where I was from. They were convinced that I was some sort of alt of an evil guild within the game since I know how to build quicker than most due to my experience and immense ammounts of free time. It sucked. I will get into more detail about this when I start doing my game reviews. And these will be honest reviews from an official girl gamer, not some immature, testosterone hyped 12 year old fanboi concerned about losing his cloudsong...
Anyway, so after meridian I decided to return to Daoc. Which by this time was incredibly hard to locate at the local EB/Gamestop, which until recently was my favorite place to find games. Unfortunately they cater a considerable bit more to the console gamer. Which is fine in it's own respect. I enjoy button mashing about as much as I enjoy pounding away at my keyboard. But they are losing a lot of money this way as I have now turned to Amazon for my gaming experience LOL. Which should really be saying something IMHO. Plus they have a marketplace feature where people can undercut the big vendors with cheaper stuff. Let's get back towards the topic a bit. I manage to beg the gamestop manager to give me the display copy of Daoc with all the expansions leading up to, and including trials of atlantis. I think I played this in hope of having some memory of my old guildmates and the fun of running around in a dungeon. Well, I was completely shocked to find that my whole guild was still active, but I didn't know a single person in it. I got over it, and began playing again only to accidentally run into a zone that was a player owned LAG! Oops I mean I wandered into player owned housing. And again I was saddened by game devs putting things in a game that would make it run crappier than ever. It was a slap in the face. One that was soon to come over and over again with each new game I would grace with my presence. I canceled the same week since the lag was too great to bother with.
Over the next few years people would see me on such games as Thang, Ragnarok Online, Eve Online, World of Warcraft, Flyff, Star Wars Galaxies, EQ 2, EQ (yes I went back for a short while), Shadowbane, Lineage 2, Anarchy Online, Vendetta, Earth and Beyond, Second Life, Tibia, and a few other names I can't remember at this exact moment. I haven't tried it all, but I'm pretty damn close with how many games I have had to hop in search of the perfect MMO. I feel I should add this though. A game isn't necessarily all about the devs fucking up. In the end, it's what you make of it. I have had to learn this painful lesson since all games I have played follow the same formula. Arg.
Rawr
Monday, January 29, 2007
Yaaaaaar!
Ok! My first post should be meaningful and deep don't you think? Not today though. hahaha Sorry! I rule! :P I'm not likely to change much for at least a little while. I am currently reinstalling WoW to my hard drive. I know I may someday learn to regret this, but for now most of my negative memories seem to have fled my mind. So here I go feet first! What's funny is, I can't really start playing it yet as our bank freaked out and we currently have low balance. Not to worry though since we called and bitched quite angrily at them until they cried and said it would be fixed within 10 business days. Anyway, I have to wait till about wednesday to be able to reactivate my account.
I suppose I should explain a little bit about why I'm in such a bad place that I have to consider WoW as a form of entertainment. I hail from the very beginning of most MMO's. And no, I'm not one of those stupid bitches that kind of dabbled on her brothers UO account. I was given a PC in highschool and discovered a cute little onlne community called Meridian59. I have so many happy memories about the events and roleplay. I tried playing UO when it came out, and it was fun in it's own respect..... but it was incredibly slow on my computer and that made enjoying the game difficult. So I pretty much stuck to M59 and Medievia until EQ came out and meridian ended up fading away into nothing shortly therafter. I was so attached to my beloved game that in protest to EQ, I continued to play Medievia instead of joining my friends there. (I even tried Lineage!! *puke*) Which I later learned was a wise decision. After about a year or so of various muds I finally caved and gave it a shot. Oh woe is me! My subscription lasted all of 1 week. Even my newborn kitten hissed and scratched at the choppy buggy graphics. Not to worry though because then Dark Age Of Camelot came out. I played this game happily for many years despite the strange crafting system and slight grind. I managed to get pretty far until I learned that someone had purchased the server soft of my favorite game from the old company that had bankrupted. They were making plans to re-open M59! I was ecstatic! I sent as many donations as I could afford and was happy to be among the beta testers as well as one of the first few souls to log in when the servers when live. It was so much for my heart that I thought I might very well explode on the spot. Here was my big shiny red god candy brought back from the very grave! .....
My eyes are bleeding from writing so much, I think I will play with the features and finish the story in my next blog!
But for now, a nice picture of the big fucking gun!
rawr
I suppose I should explain a little bit about why I'm in such a bad place that I have to consider WoW as a form of entertainment. I hail from the very beginning of most MMO's. And no, I'm not one of those stupid bitches that kind of dabbled on her brothers UO account. I was given a PC in highschool and discovered a cute little onlne community called Meridian59. I have so many happy memories about the events and roleplay. I tried playing UO when it came out, and it was fun in it's own respect..... but it was incredibly slow on my computer and that made enjoying the game difficult. So I pretty much stuck to M59 and Medievia until EQ came out and meridian ended up fading away into nothing shortly therafter. I was so attached to my beloved game that in protest to EQ, I continued to play Medievia instead of joining my friends there. (I even tried Lineage!! *puke*) Which I later learned was a wise decision. After about a year or so of various muds I finally caved and gave it a shot. Oh woe is me! My subscription lasted all of 1 week. Even my newborn kitten hissed and scratched at the choppy buggy graphics. Not to worry though because then Dark Age Of Camelot came out. I played this game happily for many years despite the strange crafting system and slight grind. I managed to get pretty far until I learned that someone had purchased the server soft of my favorite game from the old company that had bankrupted. They were making plans to re-open M59! I was ecstatic! I sent as many donations as I could afford and was happy to be among the beta testers as well as one of the first few souls to log in when the servers when live. It was so much for my heart that I thought I might very well explode on the spot. Here was my big shiny red god candy brought back from the very grave! .....
My eyes are bleeding from writing so much, I think I will play with the features and finish the story in my next blog!
But for now, a nice picture of the big fucking gun!
rawr
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